I don’t know where to start. A lot of things been running through my mind (what’s new). My pregnancy journey will end in less than a month time when I deliver the baby. Anxious, excited, nervous, depress etc. all these mixed feelings in me. It’s only normal to feel lethargic and stress out at work. Requested for leave from Dr S but she said that working till the end is good for labour. I know moving around is good for labour but I’m mentally stressed with work and the people I work with. It’s not I don’t want to work, it’s because I hate my work so much right now. Ohwells, may God give me the strength to tahan for another few more weeks and I’ll be gone. Gone for good, I hope. Haish.
A got a new job offer which involve shift work. I’ve always prefer a guy working office hours so that we can spend more time together as a couple and a family. But…haish. Shall not dwell on it. He’s earning more for us. I got to think positive. I need to get a grip of my emotions right now. Is it normal to be feeling this way? It’s not that I WANT to feel this wayy..situations around me is MAKING me feel shitty. Oh lil one, mama is so sorry for feeling this way. Let’s continue to eat and be happy in my stomach till the time comes okay? Be good. It’s never gonna be easy but we shall brave through this together, InsyaAllah.
May Allah ease our journey together. Amin.
Till then, I’ll post again after giving birth. If I ever find the time.